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[japonicastar]

 
So I haven't seen my friend since my birthday in December and we've both been on holiday in that time. When I invite her for a cuppa today, I got the reply "Oh well Andy's going out tonight so I can see you then." 

Well that's nice, you really know how to make a girl feel special. You'll only see me because your boyfriend is going out. Nice!  You've spent 3 weeks with him, but I don't get a visit if he's available.

Is is hard for people to understand that a person likes their presence to matter and not to feel, I don't know, unwanted.

In any case she's now coming over for tea to talk about her perfect holiday, her perfect bloke and her perfect flaming job. 

Seriously. I need a man, at least then I may not feel like I'm lost.  I need something anyway, a new job even.  I'm sick of being stuck in a rut and everyone else is getting married and having babies. 

I hate putting on a happy front because it's killing me listening to these people go on and on about things I don't have.

Blegh I'm a hormonal mess today, many apologies!